So yesterday, little old me is just driving to work when my hair tie snaps! I have to maneuver into the nearest store that might have something to hold my hair back. No one wants hair flavored custard. I make my purchase without incident, and meander on back to my car. I didn't think much of the trip until I hear someone mocking the lower functioning man who is being extremely friendly to everyone that walks by and just doing his job of returning the carts to the front of the store. I turn around and glare right into the eyes of some fat jackass with no human decency. He's mocking this poor man just trying to earn a living RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM! I can't believe my eyes, and am so taken aback I don't know what to say. I flounder for words, and try to think of the most effective thing to say to him, but nothing comes. I'm about to blurt out something without a plan, because I don't want to just walk away- saying nothing against injustice is just as bad as being a complete asshole- but then I see it. This man has a giant BYU and CTR sticker on the back of his minivan. I am stunned. These people who are not accepting another man who has no reason to be blamed for his misfortune proclaim to be members of a faith that touts acceptance, service, and kindness to others? Bullshit. I'm sorry, but that isn't okay in any faith. How can a creationist even begin to have a negative opinion of anyone EVER?? If you believe that God is the creator of light and life, aren't you technically mocking Him when you mock one of his children?!
This is not okay.
I didn't have any clue what to say. I wanted to say something along the lines of
"Hey fuckhead! (I was that mad) You are going to make fun of this lower functioning man who did nothing to deserve his plight? Great- then I have no problem making fun of you and your ugly bitch wife for being fat asses."
I realized this wasn't right. Who am I to judge someone for being fat? They might have a thyroid problem, and it might not be their fault. It would be completely wrong of me to be disgusted by this man's behavior and then turn around and do the exact same thing to him. Implementing justice is not up to me- it's up to the universe, and if I don't have the exact right words, I know I'm not the one who is supposed to make the issue right.
I know there is no teaching an old dog new tricks, so I walk away as the only one disappointed I didn't say anything in defense of a human soul. I'm upset that I couldn't make a difference, but what's the man going to do? Listen to a preachy little 5'7'' 113 pound girl? My inaction sickens me a little still. Next time I witness injustice, I really hope I have the words to at least TRY to make the world a better place with one less inconsiderate soul.
Faith in Humanity?
Grr,
On another note, I worked again yesterday. I really like the people I work with, but I don't like how dirty I get! There was chocolate custard ALL up my leg. I guess that's what showers are for though! The only semi-eventful thing that happened at work was a bunch of cute forest restoration servicemen coming in for a treat.
After work I went to dub yoga- super fun. I pushed myself harder than I normally do, and was able to achieve new poses and lifts/inversions! I guess all this working out (going on 4 days straight!!) is really working for me. I feel so much better already.
Speaking of feeling better, I decided to up and quit one of my worst habits. It's been two days off of them, and I don't ever feel like going back. I never knew it would be this easy, but I guess once you're really ready for something and you find the motivation you need it become easy. I was even around them yesterday and didn't give in. Yay me!
I have an interview for a modeling agency today at 3:30, an interview for a second job on Friday at 10:30, and am waiting on a call back from another place to schedule an interview- we've been basically playing phone tag for two days now. Money money! I need it if I'm going to be back at USU in a year!
I leave for Logan tomorrow after work! It's only been a week, but I'm still excited to go back. I Love my L-town buddies!! Also: ANBERLIN!!! I love them love them love them. Can't waitttt!!!! (: Hopefully it is good weather for the trip and the weekend.
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